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Thursday, September 18th, 2008
12:38 pm
I saw that somewhere and decided that shit was not a perfect analogy for my life right now... but a clever one.

A more appropriate analogy/quote for my life right now would probably be "I'll get you MEGATRON if it's the last thing I do!" and/or "Transformers, ROLL OUT!"




Ugh. I'm so gay!
(clearly in a non homo but more specifically retarted way)



I have so many dates with girls coming up right now, i dont know what to do.
Do i like it?
sorta.
I mean... who wouldn't like going out with a bunch of girls on different days of the week... or even different hours of the same day, right?

but that makes me sound like a manwhore.
yes. that is one word. non hyphenated.

But... truth is...
I don't really want to go out with 90kabajillion girls.

:/

but i do know that i cant be by myself right now.
especially not with greg being super emo.
I can't let that rub off on me any. It's not healthy.

But... in some ways... having greg be all emo man keeps me aware of what not to do or say etc.

so.. it's a double edged sword.





I forget the actual words in latin... stupid me, but there's a quote that i've been thinking about lately.
okay... i just looked up the latin form.
"Veritas vos liberabit "

The Truth Will Set You Free.




I believe that is true. However, I also believe that people who try so hard not to hurt other people by sparing them the truth only make it harder.

ex. there was a friend of mine, who i knew was doing some sketchy shit, and would never come forward about it. I KNEW what was going on... the evidence was all around... I even caught this person in a lie, but still they were intent on not handing out the truth and having my respect. To me, that's not only dishonest, but it also tears into a person's pride. ya know?

anywhoo... so.. point is...
whatever it is... truth be forward.

that's all i'm saying on that.

in other news.
I went to BK and got the only thing i ever eat at BK.
Tenders. and I noticed that they have crowns.
Remember when they were just tenders. in a straight and narrow form?
and then.... for the LONGEST time... they were DINOSAUR shapes.

the dino nuggets were the best of all.




time to go run errands and get paid.
then cleaning the room and re-arranging it.

in the next few months... it should be going through a complete overhaul transformation.

i know i know. it's been said before...
but... i need a project.
I'm working 2 jobs, with the possibility of a third... and... i'm going to do projects
Thursday, May 15th, 2008
8:32 pm
you know you're doing something right when...
a lesbian tells you that she'd turn straight for you...
and that you should promptly turn her straight.

:)






such is my life.










Dirty Pirate Hookers!
More at 11:00.
Friday, May 9th, 2008
8:55 am
wow... if this isn't thre most ridiculous....
Capricorn-
Friday May 9th, 2008


You are less motivated now by traditional success than you are by uncovering a deeper meaning to your life. For the next 7 weeks Mars moves through your 8th House of Intimacy and Transformation, coercing you to step into the shadows of your own mind in order to reinvent yourself and make your work and relationships more relevant. Don't worry about acting out of character; others will adapt to the "new you" in time.











I'm not entirely big on Horoscopes anyway.
Thursday, April 10th, 2008
10:19 pm
Weird thing is.... I am really happy right now.
this has nothing to do with how i feel or anything right now.
I actually heard it on Liz's Ipod and i was like... WOOAAHH I haven't heard this in Foreverrrr!!!
So despite the fact that it may be mistaken as my current feelings through current set of events....
I SWEAR it's purely coincidental.
Like my title says...
I am really happy right now.
So many positive things going through my mind right now.
Ahhhhh I LOVE IT!!!

ok... and here's what i was babbling about.






MOBY
Porcelain


In my dreams I'm dying all the time
As I wake its kaleidoscopic mind
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to lie
So this is goodbye
This is goodbye

Tell the truth you never wanted me
Tell me

In my dreams I'm jealous all the time
As I wake I'm going out of my mind
Going out of my mind






I remember when i was in burtwood... Tim Sullivan was our director.
He was OBSESSED with Moby.
So... This is one of the songs featured in one of the plays we put on.
And it was really good.
(he had a lot of moby)
at LEAST 1 Moby song in every play.



that's all for now.
I can't wait for tomorrow!!!!

I'm going to Umass .... and I get to see Justin, and my Mommy!!!
(and get shit taken care of for spanish)
Monday, March 24th, 2008
12:59 pm
every morning...
there's a halo hanging from the corner of my girlfriend's four post bed. ???



Nah... not really.
a) i dont have a girl friend.
b) she wouldnt have a four post bed.
c) who the fuck's halo is it? Not HERS. why?.... because all "girls are the debbil" bobby boucher.




I don't know what happened...
or why it did...
but...
I'm not fond of the outcomes.





















seems as though I have been taken advantage of on 4 different fronts. Or maybe more.
The only people i truly trust now live in the same house as me.
oh. And my mom.




I know i have always been the more emotional one.
And I try not to be emotional in public or infront of my friends... but... every once in a while.... I show that emotion. (whatever it is at the time)
And for the longest time i built the biggest strongest wall around me. like a giant frotress. And I could shoot my arrows of fire from the upper tier. but now?... now that castle has been in crumbles for a while.. and I stand in the middle of rubble. And when I step out to try to make friends with the natives or give peace offerings and the like.... I am cut and bruised and battered. It has been this way for quite a while now. No more castle walls to protect me. Just me. you'd think i'd learn not to wear my heart on my sleeve. (you know... i really don't get that analogy/metaphor.) Anywhoo... Around my castle were smaller watch towers. the were outside the main castle walls... but inside the town's walls. These watch towers were there for allies. Some allies came and went as they pleased. doing things for their own gain. others stuck through the hard times and saw the end of the castle. a few stayed to help rebuild the castle from the inside. Less walls more flying buttresses. Then new allies came and started helping. We all had a joyous time building and being merry together and we even feasted. Then a storm came and poured water all over the land and that's when the dam broke. everyone scattered. Nothing happened to my "castle" just an ankle deep puddle from the wash over. But my allies were in trouble. Feuding over lands. especially after the rain. had washed away the fences. Now it was up to me to help them. but there is only one of me and many allies. it is easier when many allies are helping one person. not the other way around. Well... the feuding stopped. there was silence. someone was wearing a black cloak. someone poisoned the water. they all went mad. how do i protect one from another? can i? is that my responsibility? I try to do what I can. allies who shared everything with me. now, tell me nothing. my most trusted allies turn their backs and steal my flock. the treasure that i had kept safe and hidden away has left as well. Now life is watching my allies pick up their pieces and walking towards the sunset. some denying what ever happened. Some dancing into the night with their spoils. and others just moving on to rebuild for themselves. Now comes the challenge? Do I chase after the black cloaked figure? do get to the bottom of the poisoned well? do i chase after the treasure? or... do i hope that my treasure returns, my allies settle their boundaries and fences, and the cloaked figure reveal their self? How am I to know? the only thing i can do is continue to build and to work and to push myself until i can travel away and bring knowledge back and re-establish my place. I know what I want. Now is the time to set the gears in motion to do what i need to do in order to obtain that which i love.

This has been a Masterpiece Theater production of the J. T. & Q. variety.
we are brought to you by the numbers 1, 4, &5. and the letters f,y,j,a,m


alrighty. it's 1:35pm. time to get to the bank... the store... and schools.

Current Mood: uncomfortable
Friday, March 14th, 2008
11:43 am
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ahhhh... it feels good to not have to be anywhere.
(except work. :^p )
Tuesday, March 11th, 2008
2:39 am
if at all it made sense....
there would be something there to stir it all up again.


Kind of like when you built that awesome 8 foot x 6 foot western town out of lincoln logs... and then when you finally figured out what you had made your little 4 year old cousin or sibling came over and kicked it all down into a pile of rubble and you were left with just the memory of it, but no proof that it ever actually happened.
Friday, February 29th, 2008
12:18 am
actually.. a quick update....
Soo... i was in wal-mart today.
Yay.
and I was looking around the toy section for some cars...
and then i moseyed on over to the DVD section.
First I looked @ the Blu Rays... not a very big selection.
Oh well.
So I'm looking there.. and out of the corner of my eye i see two girls walking by.
If I was at all interested in them My head would've turned and been staring at their bums.
But I was not interested.
Quite the opposite really.
But the only reason I noticed them was because they were talking rather loudly and in my general area.
So.. these 2 girls walk perpendicular to where I am.
Then I head further down the aisle away from them.
they went down the adjacent and parallel aisle.
I crossed the middle and went to the other section of DVDs.
They came down the same aisle.
As I'm looking at gay cartoons that i don't even want to be looking at (thinking i might find something worth while- WRONG) they come further down the aisle, and they are talking up a storm. Between the 2 of them I don't think they took a single breath.
Anyway....
So I'm standing there and as they walk by One of them Runs her hand down my back. I can feel all 5 fingers so I KNOW it wasn't her purse or anything like that.
I turn around to look at her.. and she continues walking down the aisle. Never once turned her head around and kept on talking like nothing ever happened.

So I turn the other way and head back up the full aisle I came down. I stop very briefly at the Blu RAys just to collect my thoughts.
Then I pursue the girls.
Well.... I would've... but they disappeared.
I saw the direction they were heading when they left me and I went that way. looking down every row, every aisle, and behind every end-cap. NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!!!
I even waited up front for about 5 minutes after I searched everywhere.
NOTHING.

So my conclusion is this... (besides them being sort of creepy teenage stalker girl types)
The two of them were either
A) ANGELS
B) DEMON HELL-SPAWNS!
C) ALIENS

I swear plain as day i could feel her hand go from the top of my back all the way to almost my butt!


WEIRD.

















-Side note-
Random Caryn dream again.
Last week.
I think it came true again.
I think I foresaw yet again another pivotal moment in her life.
I tell you what...
This dream thing is getting old.
Why can't the things I actually ENJOY dreaming about come true?!
(with few exceptions)

I mean... That ONE piece of that dream is probably going to be the only thing that comes true in the WHOLE dream just because for some reason I've got this radar frequency in my brain turned in on that one person.
And.. I can tell you.. whatever radio station is playing in my head It's only picking up her important life decisions.
Why has that never happened with Liz for example? orrr Ashlyn. OR JARROD!?
These are the people I see ALL the time.
Why can't i pick up on them instead. Or ME!

It's been her for a while.
then my grandfather.
then back to her.
Liz a couple times... but it wasn't really predicting anything. Just stating the facts.
back to her...
my sister once...
and again... back to her.
Always.
????
I pray that ONE other part of that dream come true so that I can say... "AH HAH! It's not just her anymore, it's __________ !!!"


ok. well. Bed time for me.
Calling the Doc's tomorrow.
yay.
goodnight folks.
Monday, February 25th, 2008
11:28 am
i pee in cups even when I'm NOT at the doctor's....
Just Kidding.
Only 3 today. They were on... and they're longer than Days Away. Hah.


FINCH
-----
"Letters To You"

Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone
Get me through this one
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]
No more looking I've found home
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]
I'm gone away
I'm gone away
___________________________________________________________

PIEBALD
-------
"Just A Simple Plan"

You got a window in the basement.
You got a perfect view, but you don't care.
Have you ever seen the things that go on outside?
You got a door to your apartment,
so you can step outside and see the sights.
Downtown looks like don't own if you look at it right.
You just might sleep yourself to death, yeah.
Your guts will spill onto your bed, yeah yeah.
I've got a windowsill that I mentioned earlier where you can rest your chin, yeah yeah.
There is also a seat, that I've heard exists somewhere, for the perfect rest, yeah yeah.

You got a window in the basement.
You got a perfect view, but you don't care.
Have you ever seen the things that go on outside?
You got a door to your apartment,
so you can step outside and see the sights.
Downtown looks like don't own if you look at it right.
It's just a simple plan to keep you awake.
It's just a simple plan to keep you awake.
No matter what I try, your eyeballs seem to hide.

After saying that you won't sleep in ever again, you slept all morning long, yeah yeah.
If you're bored than you must be boring too. Did I st-st-st-st-stutter? Yeah, yeah.
Your own kind of corruption leads to sleeping in, yeah yeah.
If you want to wait, then I'll just start the clock,
and see how much time you waste, yeah yeah.

You got a window in the basement.
You got a perfect view, but you don't care.
Have you ever seen the things that go on outside?
You got a door to your apartment,
so you can step outside and see the sights.
Downtown looks like don't own if you look at it right.
Ooh... it's just a simple plan to keep you awake.
It's just a simple plan to keep you awake.
No matter what I try, your eyeballs seem to hide.
You just might sleep yourself to death, yeah yeah.
_____________________________________________________________

AS TALL AS LIONS
----------------
"96 Heartbeats"

There’s no sign of love
I can see the faces
underneath the smile
everyone’s alone

And they don’t believe you so
no, they won’t believe you, no
we are the only ones
that won't let go

get somebody else to
tell you how you feel inside
let it go, let it go

this seems so surreal
keg of empty promise
constantly I feel
shaking in my bones

And they don’t believe you so
No, they won’t believe you, know
am I the only one
who hurts my soul

Get somebody else to tell you how you feel inside
and you let somebody else drag you down
don’t fake it all, don’t fake it all
You're the leader in the basement
let it go, let it go

I’m a fool at heart
I’m weighted up against
the cruelest of hearts
I’m weighted up against

I sing sweet again
I sing sweet again
I sing sweet again

Don’t feel bad
Do what you want no, no
I want to believe you so
Do what you want no, no
Why should I feel so bad
we’re keeping it no, no...

Get somebody else to tell you how you feel inside
and you let somebody else drag you down
But don’t fake it all, don’t fake it all
You're the leader in the basement
let it go, let it go
_________________________________________________________________






now i should get my ass in gear and get dressed and get out the door.
Bank today...
Class @ 3:15...
bed early tonight. (after Sarah Conner)
Tuesday, February 19th, 2008
12:54 am
No real update... just music in my head.
"What She Tells Me"
So I'll tell you I love her. That is what I'll tell myself. But there's something I'm hiding cause I'm afraid of what she might find out. We're going to start this right. It's going to end tonight. I'm gonna make sure everything will end up white. This is where you wanted to be. I bet that now, if I said anything, you wouldn't believe me. Like when I say it is what it is meant to be.

-------------------------------------------


"Knows My Name (Dado)"

She's over satisfied
With the limit of this skyline
And I'm over satisfied
With being here.
She sits on the edge of her seat
And asks me outrageous things
About who I was and what I wanted to be.

She must have
She must have read my mind
Cause I've been waiting for this.
Now Ive just
Now I've just blown my mind.
But I feel fine
I feel fine.

She wears a sparkle on her left cheek
When she lifts her lips and shows her teeth.
I'm wondering why a girl like her
Is sitting here with me.
Ever since last Saturday,
I've been thinking about what to say.
And all I can do is hope for the best.

She must have
She must have read my mind
Cause I've been waiting for this.
Now I've just
Now I've just blown my mind.
But I feel fine
I feel fine.

I'll sit alone this time
And spend an hour by the phone.
I wish you would call to save me.

She knows my name
And I've forgotten what to say.
She knows my name. [2x]

Now take this,
Put it in your hand,
Well turn around,
But don't forget again.
Now take this
Well now take this

She must have
She must have read my mind
Cause I've been waiting for this.
Now I've just
Now I've just blown my mind.
But I feel fine
I feel fine.

-----------------------------------------------------


"Waking Up"

It's the simplest things we tend to ignore, when it's the simplest things that mean so much more. Quit falling down because this is what I bet. Come on. Don't take those pictures down tonight. Please just wake me up. That would be a nightmare. Well, even if she wanted me to, I wouldn't be there in a hurry. If you did I know I would run away and scream. If she begged me I'd never bend back. If she wanted me to I couldn't listen to that. Remember me, I'm the one standing to the right of you whispering in your ear, "I'm gonna be with you forever."

--------------------------------------------------------


"Easier Said Than Done"

Why don't you try harder next time. You're better safe than sorry but I'm gone and never coming back again. So now you think I'm crazy. Now you know I'm not the one. Who cares, she's gone away and left you sad and lonely. The world you knew before is gone. And you wish that she would call to say, "you know I'm sad and lonely and everything before is everything I had." So why don't you say sorry next time, I said you're better safe than sorry but I'm gone and never coming back again. Now you think I'm crazy. Now you know I'm not the one. You would. Pick out your answer when you're gone.

----------------------------------------------------------


"The Regular G"

Is this less than what I can handle or is this more than you deserve? I bet you build me up this high just so I can crash a little harder. I wish you would call me over there. I wish you would come here on a start. Wait, I can't wait another day. I wish you would come here on a start. I bet it happens again and again and again until it happens again.

---------------------------------------------------------




Wow... I haven't heard that ep in god knows how long!.....
but it just popped into my head so i had to look the lyrics up and once it did eerything came rushing back to me... so... before i go to bed.... I'm going to listen to this CD!!!
Monday, February 18th, 2008
3:14 am
I don't understand people.
the title says it all.









but if you happen to want more clarification....
I more specifically don't understand the people to whom I'm supposed to know the best...




my friends.










































I'm going to spain this summer...
then moving to Amherst.
(maybe L.A.)




I can't deal with this shit... I've got to move on w/ my life too, right?
RIGHT.























so......

No more girls.
no more friends.
no more friend fights.
no more putting Joshua in highly "tensious" awkward situations /
no more putting him in situations that he has to choose "loyalty".






ok, going to bed.
way past tired.
drunken sleepy.
g'night.
Saturday, February 9th, 2008
2:04 am
Fridays
Why do i seem to get into the most trouble on friday nights?

last week was trouble. (good trouble, but trouble none the less)




this week was trouble. (not so much good.)-(it should've been.)















Liz told me i am definitely a big fan of the ENTER button.
I use it wayyy too much when writing blogs and away messages... but never would i do that on a college paper.

They just wouldn't understand me.



anyway....



I've learned something.
no ..... that isn't right.
I've known forever now... but it re-occurred to me that women... are crazy.
Let's see what i've dealt with lately.

-A bajillion texts.
-phone calls a and IMs saying "where the hell are you? pick up your damn phone"
(when it's off, in my pocket, and i'm out.)
-"blah blah blah "we're cool"
-Hillary Clinton!




man o' man....

what's with this shit?





not to mention I almost legit died tonight.
i "puked" before we got home. (ask me about that at a later time and I'll fill you in on what i mean.)

Bar hopping girls are crazy.. especially ones wearing blue and going along with my absurd jokes about dinosaurs and how jarrod is gay.


valentine's day?!
Hah!
typical "Josh Quackenbush valentine's day extravaganza!"
that means... I'll do nothing... I might work.
Shit will be lame as always.

I don't think i've had a successful V-day since Carey Damon.... whom i dated in 8th grade.

and even then... it wasn't THAT great... except she did buy my like a dozen or more of my favorite candy bar.
That was sweet.





anygays.... greg was locked out of his house... so he's going to be crashing on my couch.



I'm ending it here and eating some ramen before i sleep.













and I apologize if I was a douche and sent drunken text messages tonight.
but in my defense...I almost died. (and not by my own hand)




Good night folks.


see you on the other side of the ENTER button.
Monday, February 4th, 2008
11:22 pm
one rollercoaster week
title pretty much says it all.





ups and downs.

heart beats.
heartaches (pats)




yeah it's an upside down kind of world right now.
I hope i get things straightened out.











I hope this was easier than it is.
Why can't it be?





























































okay.
That's it.
I've made my decision.

and only one of you might actually get to find out what that is!



This was the lamest post... i know... but it cleared my head a smidgen.
Tuesday, January 15th, 2008
2:52 am
holy fucking ass crackers!!!
I haven't posted since the 22nd of october.
which was probably after midnight or something.
I dont even remember.
That was someone's birthday as i recall.
I ended up seeing her not too long after that.
Field Trip to NY.
Well... haven't heard from that one in a long time.
Ask me if i'm surprised. Because I'm not.
I just find it disappointing that even after all this time a friendship isn't in the cards for her.
Oh wells.
So.... I went to Disney and it was AMAZING!! I haven't been there since i was... hmm.. i dunno... 9?
9 years old. DAMN!
That was about 15 years and 1 month. Almost exactly.
I loved it!
I also recently found out a past.... situation, or such, of mine.... told me of information that i would sell a kidney for.
so to speak.
on the relationship front. The battle lines if you will...
several of my friends have got themselves in pickles.
some have removed themselves from the jar...
and still others are getting Dill.
ME on the other hand. I'm fresh. I'm still a Cucumber waiting for some lovele lesbian couple to take advantage of my produce goodness.
.....
.....
.....
Or...
not.
I have fraudulant charges made on a credit card i never received nor activated.
How is that possible?
I get a bill for 91 dollars saying... TIME's UP!
What the hell is that shit about?!
I'm calling BestBuy tomorrow and clearing shit up.
I have to call lots of places to clear things up.
Damn.
I AM in a pickle.
Well... at least I'm in an entirely different can of mixed nuts.

Speaking of nuts!...

My grandmother... (you love how this sounds right now don't ya?)
(i'm not that sick... but close. hahahha)
.... gave me Poppycock for christmas.
I hate poppycock.
But... I always bought Poppycock for my Pop-pop every christmas.
This is her (everyone's) first Christmas without him.
She knew that every year I'd buy him poppycock and popcorn.
Every year since i was 9. Before that... I think i gave him things i made in art class... but that's besides the point.
My grandmother gave me, this year, what i gave my grandfather EVERY year.
Maybe it's her way of keeping him apart of her... apart of all of us.
I'm not sure.
I miss him. That's clear. She does too. We all do.
I went to his grave for the first time since.
I couldn't leave anything there for him.
But I wrote him a note.
"I Love you Pop-Pop."
I'm sure he already knows.
HELL... He told me he was dead before i found out.
That's creepy and weird I know... but it's the truth.
I don't really want to go into it... but yeah.

So... enough sad talk.
I got a new TV. (and I'm paying it until I'm 40) just kidding.
only until the end of 2008.
MY nephews are soo big!
I love them so much!
They are too smart for their own good.
Daniel was trying to barter his toy for Qaiden's.
It was the SAME EXACT TOY!!!
but Daniel insisted that they trade for a while because his could be "more fun to play with."
I swear he gets that genetic trait from his dad.

I saw some family that some other family refuses to see as family... and vice versa.
That was nice.... and awkward.

I have an addiction.
It's true.
I cannot reveal what it is I am addicted too. But There are no classes or meetings for it.
So I will continue the addiction until i am no longer satisfied.
(that could be a while)
in the mean time...
I'm going to better myself; mentally, physically, emotionally, and studiously.
I'm going to start going to the gym.
I'm going to get out more.
I'm going to read more. (whatever it may be)
and.... I will dedicate myself to getting through this gosh darn spanish.
(maybe if i purchase that Rosetta stone and dictate myself to that 20-30hours a week.)



Well I'm off to bed because it's Tuesday and it's 3:17am.
Good"night" folks.
Monday, October 22nd, 2007
1:32 am
october 21st does wonders for me
in 24 hours the red sox made it to game 7 after midnight on 20th/21st.
The pats went 7-0 beating the dolphins 49-28.
and the Sox made it to the world series before midnight October 21st.

and again... it's another Birthday good luck omen.
Happy Birthday.
& thank you for being lucky!




My football final is in 8 hours.
I'm going to go to bed... miss spanish... go to my football final... go to the doctor's at 1pm and... come home and rest!


I need some hugs right now! (I'm so happy!)





















ok goodnight... more to come in a day or two!
Thursday, October 11th, 2007
4:29 pm
I have decided
I am in love with Kari Byron from myth busters.
Tuesday, October 9th, 2007
12:07 am
wow... ok ... Back to the future Part 1
so... the past seemed to be creeping around me for a while with the dreams.
Then in July they stopped.
Then... i had 2 within a week.
I won't go into detail, but let's say what happened in my dream came true. (again)


I hate it.


The last time I had a dream like THAT my grandfather died.





:(

and now I find out that ______ is going to have ______ surgery.

I don't want to say anything more because it's not really my place, but I am worried for her.
I don't want anything to happen in surgery. I'm worried. That's all. I still care. That's ok right? I mean... It's not like I'm going to run back to this person etc etc blah blah blah.... but I do want to be there for her if she needs me. She was a big part of my life and I'd feel terrible if there wasn't anything I could do.

So.. Today I'm looking through pictures I just got developed and picked out ones I wanted to scan into the Comp and when i finished that I scoured my room for every picture i could find.
After I found them and picked them out and cleaned up... I started going through other random shit i had stored in my desk... and i found some letters and cards... (birthday cards, easter cards, christmas cards, etc) and I came across 2 from my mom saying the same thing and given to me about the same time in my life. Only 2 weeks apart. It was my past creeping up on me again.
Something else is going on that I'm not seeing. I believe in fate and karma and such, but this is confusing. Obviously something is coming up that i need to be aware of... but I thought the 2 recent dreams took care of that!?

Who do i even ask about this? Do i say... "Hey, Mr. Fate, what's all this about? You know, the dreams and the fateful findings and all?" or do I say "Hey, Fate, remember me? Why are you fucking with me? Is my life a joke?" or maybe it's not fate. Maybe it's all random happenstance. Nothing about it is destined. Nothing is planned. Nothing has been set forth to be realized later on. It's all a bunch of Ping Pong balls on mouse traps in a warehouse.

then again...... all those balls were placed there in advance.

It's just something to think about... but not dwell too much in.




Anywhoo... I'm just glad we had a decent conversation, even if it was only via Text Message.



In other News... Indians are going to play the RED SOX in the first game of the ALCS at Fenway on friday night!

Go Sox!




Now it's time to study once more and go to bed.
Class in the A.M.

Goodnight!



ps. vermont this weekend. I'm esssssscited!
Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007
11:40 pm
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Screw it. I'm done. I don't really want to write in this thing right now.
Goodnight. Maybe I'll feel better in the morning.
Maybe I'll be gone.
Monday, September 24th, 2007
3:00 am
UPDATE
IT was Dudek's birthday this weekend.
Liz and I did NOT watch heroes.
I am working til the time in which i need to wake up in the mornings.
I will MISS the season premier of Heroes, and I will be sad about it.
Petting zoo this weekend??
Apples soon?
NH/VT coming up.
I am so overwhelmed with work right now i can't even enjoy the time off that i have because it just means catching up on sleep i lose.


With that said...

I'm off to bed for 4 hours.


night night.
Thursday, August 30th, 2007
4:39 pm
Boo scrubby scruffy man on bench. Hooray for Beer!
Dudek, greg, and myself went to wrentham today.
Mike bought chocolate.
I bought Chocolate, a hat, and snowboarding gloves.
Greg bought a $2 coke from the coke machine.

greg did his normal thing of hitting on every girl in every store we went into... including friendly's in Middleboro.

Gaffney took forever to get to friendly's.

He was too busy losing weight.



Anywhoo...






















So... I have to go to work in an hour.
My car is at the shop.
Yay.

I need to clean my entire room tomorrow.
ugh.

I really don't have anything of substance right now.






oh wells.





ps. stupid yanks swept the stupid sox! fuckbeans.
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